The most thing bothering me for some days is...why am I living?...Why don't I just commit suicide?....I don't know why I am living, but I also don't commit suicide. I am just living my life without any reason....
But also have to say, that I think suicide is the stupidest thing ever someone can do....~~~~ So I won't commit suicide....dunno why...

Raining JHan wrote:

God, i wish i could skip school, but my ma would throw a fit, she want me to keep my head in the books? it drive me crazy!

i dont know if you've heard this for the millionth times.
"Cherish your school life"
well i dont . but you should.

and i dont think you have this problem but i'll say it anyway. you need to learn how to make friends in school. i havent got a single friend in uni.

gah. if this goes on i'll turn into a hikikimori. if you dont know what that is watch the anime NHK ni youkoso. it's something about people who dont know how to socialize well.
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akane_MYV wrote:

The most thing bothering me for some days is...why am I living?...Why don't I just commit suicide?....I don't know why I am living, but I also don't commit suicide. I am just living my life without any reason.... But also have to say, that I think suicide is the stupidest thing ever someone can do....~~~~ So I won't commit suicide....dunno why...

You need help.

Seriously.

bmwracer wrote:

You need help. Seriously.

Hm...Really? You think so?...But I think it's quite normal, if someone thinks so sometimes, right?
There are probably a lot of other people who are thinking the same way as I do...I...think....

heruiyou wrote:

i dont know if you've heard this for the millionth times. "Cherish your school life" well i dont . but you should. and i dont think you have this problem but i'll say it anyway. you need to learn how to make friends in school. i havent got a single friend in uni. gah. if this goes on i'll turn into a hikikimori. if you dont know what that is watch the anime NHK ni youkoso. it's something about people who dont know how to socialize well.

I have hardest time getting friends, most of my friends are African- american or Asian-american, anyway because i feel comfortable hanging with people of my ethnicially, but it sometime make me seem raicist, but i am not, socitey is just so hard in america, i cannot deal with it, one other thing is i m just too nice, so my friends run over me, and i just do whatever, but yea, i really need friends because it is important in life!!!
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Raining JHan wrote:

I have hardest time getting friends, most of my friends are African- american or Asian-american, anyway because i feel comfortable hanging with people of my ethnicially, but it sometime make me seem raicist, but i am not, socitey is just so hard in america, i cannot deal with it, one other thing is i m just too nice, so my friends run over me, and i just do whatever, but yea, i really need friends because it is important in life!!!

I dont think making that is racist really. you see sometimes it's just easier to be comfortable with people whom we perceived as "similar" to us. but it's cool to have friends of other ethnicity as well.

as for me, at school i stick to a few people close to me and had problems speaking to others. even with those people i kind of had a communication problem and it still persist till now. well, the problem is smaller when it's anonymous talk online like this and it does make it feel better a little bit.

now that in uni we have different people for different classes it's getting harder for me to approach people and talk. so most of the time (if not all the time) i just sit alone and watch people from afar.

well, to say that i dont talk to people at all is a lie. usually at the start of the terms a few people will come to me and talk, but they normally get new friends afterwards and leave me alone again.

and believe me, that sucks more.
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heruiyou wrote:

I dont think making that is racist really. you see sometimes it's just easier to be comfortable with people whom we perceived as "similar" to us. but it's cool to have friends of other ethnicity as well. as for me, at school i stick to a few people close to me and had problems speaking to others. even with those people i kind of had a communication problem and it still persist till now. well, the problem is smaller when it's anonymous talk online like this and it does make it feel better a little bit. now that in uni we have different people for different classes it's getting harder for me to approach people and talk. so most of the time (if not all the time) i just sit alone and watch people from afar. well, to say that i dont talk to people at all is a lie. usually at the start of the terms a few people will come to me and talk, but they normally get new friends afterwards and leave me alone again.

I know how u feel, i feel like i am in that position everyday in school, and it sucks so much, since i am a shy person, i dont get friends easliy, so i just sit alone to myself, then people make front o fu because they think u are loner or something? it is so childish, they should grow up!!!
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Eve wrote:

On topic: Being spied on by my evil neighbors is sooooo annoying.

WOW! Isn't that... erm... illegal? You should give them the poop-in-bag on their doorstep.

gaijin mark wrote:

"We expressed our love physically as was the custom at the time" - Montgomery Burns You know, Eve, you were the only one to pick up on that, I'm going to have to keep my eye on you!

I thought Agnes got run over by a beer truck...

akane_MYV wrote:

Hm...Really? You think so?...But I think it's quite normal, if someone thinks so sometimes, right? There are probably a lot of other people who are thinking the same way as I do...I...think....

It's NOT normal for someone to think of suicide on a continuous basis. I also don't think it's something that should be taken lightly. If you're SERIOUSLY comtemplating ending your life, you need to seek help either in your parents, or someone at your school (a teacher or guidance teacher). Life is very precious and if you're in a situation where life is unbearable, you need to reevaluate how you got to this point. Suicide is always the easy way out... and also the most SELFISH.

Please turn to someone if you're serious about this, instead of posting in a forum full of strangers. I'm sorry to sound harsh, I have little sympathy for people who think life is a game. There are a billion people out in this world who may have it harder in life than you do, and yet they find the will to go on and succeed. Life is not a gift you can throw away because things get "hard". Think about it.

I also apologize to you because i don't know you're entire story. Hopefully something in my words has made a point.
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Wynter wrote:

I thought Agnes got run over by a beer truck...

actually she drank all the beer and in a drunken stupor fell asleep outside in the snow and died of hypothermia.

Wyn-chan wrote:

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I thought Agnes got run over by a beer truck...

That was AFTER we got out of the snow bank.

Hey, we had to keep warm somehow!!!

Tu_triky wrote:

actually she drank all the beer and in a drunken stupor fell asleep outside in the snow and died of hypothermia.

Jeez, she's famous!

Musa wrote:

That was AFTER we got out of the snow bank.

Surprisingly this doesn't make me feel better.
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Wynter wrote:

It's NOT normal for someone to think of suicide on a continuous basis. I also don't think it's something that should be taken lightly. If you're SERIOUSLY comtemplating ending your life, you need to seek help either in your parents, or someone at your school (a teacher or guidance teacher). Life is very precious and if you're in a situation where life is unbearable, you need to reevaluate how you got to this point. Suicide is always the easy way out... and also the most SELFISH. Please turn to someone if you're serious about this, instead of posting in a forum full of strangers. I'm sorry to sound harsh, I have little sympathy for people who think life is a game. There are a billion people out in this world who may have it harder in life than you do, and yet they find the will to go on and succeed. Life is not a gift you can throw away because things get "hard". Think about it. I also apologize to you because i don't know you're entire story. Hopefully something in my words has made a point.

No no...you got it wrong, I just have no reason to live, but I live!
I am also the opinion, that suicide is no solution. Look at my past post, there I also said, that suicide is the stupidest thing ever,....so I definitely wouldn't commit suicide. I just don't know, why I live,....I live live live...and don't know why, but I wouldn't commit suicide. So I also don't know what to do...also don't know what the best solution would be.
I feel inside sometimes really empty...

akane_MYV wrote:

No no...you got it wrong, I just have no reason to live, but I live! I am also the opinion, that suicide is no solution. Look at my past post, there I also said, that suicide is the stupidest thing ever,....so I definitely wouldn't commit suicide. I just don't know, why I live,....I live live live...and don't know why, but I wouldn't commit suicide. So I also don't know what to do...also don't know what the best solution would be. I feel inside sometimes really empty...

I know how u feel, but Suicide is not the answer, there is a girl i know that wanted to do same thing, because she thought her life was worthless, but i tell it isnt, alot of people dont understand why they are in this life, i just try to live life to the fulliest, even when it is hard, but one thing that is very important is to always keep positive mind, even when u feel down, just tell u self that u can get through everyday life, it is not easy, but just try, sometimes i tell myself, why are people so cruel, why do we come to this earth, to get teased by people and harassed and etc. I dont like it, especially in a country that is heavily stereotyped like United States. people say it is the american dream for minorities to live here, but when u think about it is it really the american dream?
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gaijin mark wrote:

"We expressed our love physically as was the custom at the time" - Montgomery Burns You know, Eve, you were the only one to pick up on that, I'm going to have to keep my eye on you!

Thanx, gaijin mark.

This crowd keeps me on my mettle

Growing up in NYC we didnt go "park". No one drove. But I understand the concept anyway.

Wynter wrote:

WOW! Isn't that... erm... illegal? You should give them the poop-in-bag on their doorstep.

AS long as they stay on their own own property there is f***all I can do. THey report all my littlest moveements to my ex. Personally I think they should all get a life. I ignore them. I dont care what they do.
I have a life.

Eve wrote:

AS long as they stay on their own own property there is f***all I can do. THey report all my littlest moveements to my ex. Personally I think they should all get a life. I ignore them. I dont care what they do. I have a life.

start taking random photos of them from a public place.. i.e. sidewalk, etc. and make sure they KNOW you're doing it.. doesn't matter if you do anything like load film, or a memory card.

krim wrote:

start taking random photos of them from a public place.. i.e. sidewalk, etc. and make sure they KNOW you're doing it.. doesn't matter if you do anything like load film, or a memory card.

dood, that is dayem funny.

Gun shots, outside.


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tabana wrote:

Gun shots, outside.

The 3 to 4 hour nightmare I just experienced trying to fix my Microsoft Outlook problem....@#R@$@#$@#$@#$@$@$$$j134iu092

I had to let that out

Raining JHan wrote:

I know how u feel, but Suicide is not the answer, there is a girl i know that wanted to do same thing, because she thought her life was worthless, but i tell it isnt, alot of people dont understand why they are in this life, i just try to live life to the fulliest, even when it is hard, but one thing that is very important is to always keep positive mind, even when u feel down, just tell u self that u can get through everyday life, it is not easy, but just try, sometimes i tell myself, why are people so cruel, why do we come to this earth, to get teased by people and harassed and etc. I dont like it, especially in a country that is heavily stereotyped like United States. people say it is the american dream for minorities to live here, but when u think about it is it really the american dream?

Yes...you are kinda right...just sometimes it comes in my mind, why am I living. I am chinese and living in Germany, that is also very hard, because the nazi-history, you know?....so I think it is quite the same as you are living in the United States. But the difference may be that in the United States it is crueler than here it is....